The Bitches come together!

who's Mo Wan Wan? And ruyin, my waist is like expanding to be 28... really hoping my running around these days helps to slim it back down.

Yeay, everyone's ending exams soon... but huixia is away trekking though.. hmmmz...

lets meet up soon yah?

hey gers

one more paper and i'm done for the sem! can burn everything away! hahaha!

alas! my grandma was hospitalised this morning. so gotta frequent the hospital from now on. hope she gets well soon....

and guess what... got back results for one subject. did extremely well for my paper... BUT i got an F for class participation! what's best is that both have the same weightage... well.... sad... no As this sem i guess.

stef: so good can go hk! who're you gg with? heh! must buy things for us ok?

now studying for a darn stupid paper. don't even noe why the subject exists. read through one past year exam paper. and one of the questions was like: Name three important people from _______ (e.g. energy systems) and why they're important. 3 points for that imagine! i can't be bothered who's who man! argghhh.... think i'm gonna flunk big time for this technology paper....

and one more thing... realised my waist is really expanding..... has gone to an unreasonably wide circumference of 27! can you imagine that! oh god! i'm turning in Mo Wan Wan!

=trying to be a technie=

Hi guys...

Steph, i did that too so dun worry, it's normal... fyi, it's eyeSIGHT not eyeSITE... i was looking at it sooo long and wondering what is the correct spelling for it and was sooo happy that I found it.. muahaha... actually i dunno wat is in hk... so i have no wish for anything... only miss the food there.. hehe... hmmz... regarding the epidemic.. havent been reading anything bout it cept i think pple got sick and they started disinfecting the whole place or sth... I guess you just have to be more careful.. u know, don't rub your eyes with you hands... wash your hands regularly with soap the proper SARS-free way... take lifepak twice a day... blah blah blah...

anyways... guys, i'm currently doing a charity raising food donations to malnourished children. The charity is "Nourish the Children" If you know of anyone who is a philanthrophist (or watever the spelling) please let me know and help me do a referral? thanks!

Hang in there..... exams are going to be OVER!

Hey babes,

supposed to be studying property law now.. its quite interesting just that i'm not really in the mood for it.. and i just think that it's quite easy what.. but then given that i'm not some kind of genius, there's probably a lot of things that i don't know that i have to know for the exam... oh well, just go in with what you know.. after it's already tuesday 10pm and my paper is on friday 9am.. and i'm not done yet.. so there's really no time for me to find stuff to read anyway.. i felt a sudden sense of panic run through me.. oh well, no time to panic even.. haha.. when you have so little time, every minute is precious..

like when i was doing my mask just now, i had to wait 10 min for it to dry.. despite not wearing my specs, i read my lecture notes.. haha.. bad for my eyesite right? anyway.. its confirmed dudettes, i'm going to Hong Kong from the 12th to the 15th.. actually i quite scared cos of the epidemic thingy that's happening in HK now.. do you gals know anything about it? tell me more ya?

ok just exceeded my break time.. gotta go back to work.. seeya guys..

Really Steph, i really wanna get you any of those stuff that you mentioned. Really! Alas, reality is such that it forbades me to do so. Blame not me! But on the cruel cruel world.

Sorry guys! haven't been blogging but i am back to inject some liveliness into this place! tadada.. lalalalala.... (think tune when a superhero arrives) Reason i have been MIA is because.... be ready for this guys... hold on to your seats.... I have NO internet connection at home! This is the IT age! The fast pace society! How can I, a modern woman, be deprived of a neccessity such as an internet connection?! It's absurb!! But yet true... sigh... darn SCV which is not up in the new blocks yet.... #@%$@#%$%#@

and now for the million dollar question: am i fine?
the answer is..... kinda. well i didn't cry at all the day he left... thats because i cried too much the day before and there was literally no tears left in me. the few days before he left wasn't all that great and rosy like i had hoped it would be (which explains the crying) ... but at least the last few days was back to normal... and yesterday i missed him terribly much and somehow he was uncontactable when i just needed to hear his voice and i started having funny thoughts run through my head and hence had another bout of free radicals... sheesh.. this is not easy man. really. i dunno how i am gonna get through it all. but i believe i can... that's all there is to it i guess...

Let's go skating! kayaking! whatever!! i am getting fat fAt FAT too! which is yuck yUck YUCK!

ok i know i might seem a lil' hyper today but it's because... i'm finally online!!! haha.. sorry dudettes...

okay guys... those who are having exams, study hard!!! gambatte!!! you can do it!!

and for those who are not, besides me, get the hell back here and start blogging bitch! hehehe....

Peace out

hey ppl! been so long since i've came here and it's sooo stagnant!
where're you ppl that've finished exams??

qing: are you ok now? dun be too sad ok.

i'm having another defiant mood now... can't study at all.. arrghh.. hate this feeling, can't go out, can't study, so oppressed. to top it all, i realise i'm REALLY getting fatter! arrgghhh!!


=fatter by the day=

hi guys.. i'm supposed to be doing my essay for my application to go for exchange and i'm at a loss for words.. can you imagine that? me.. Stephanie Kwara... at a loss for words... i never thought this day would come..... sob sob.. haha.. ok.. i'm officially mad.. and stressed..

Qing: i don't mind the following: a red Mini Cooper (the real car, mind you, one that can fit 4 grown person and not the model, where only Polly Pocket figurines can fit into), a Tiffany's necklace, a Sony Clie palmtop, an Olympus Mju 300 Digital Camera.. yup.. hahah... any of the above would be nice.. haha..

kidding.. anything is fine..

good luck for your exams, ruyin!!

Hey steffie! Hope you had a great bday! Sorry we didn't celebrate with you coz of the exams... -sigh- and gazillion projects that others have to rush... no hard feelings huh? Any wishes we can make come true? (ie, tell us what you want for a present so we dun have to crack our heads)

yeah people! my pain is finally going to be over soon! most of the projects are done.. after spending the whole week end in school!
but brain a bit stoned liao.. hahahaha!

gonna enjoy first b4 i still ploughing the books again! heh~
huixia ending exams tml liao... so good... my agony just started man...

qing: sorry i can't make it on the 19th too... anything just call me ok? will be more than glad to share your woes.

huixia: thanks for spending time to analyze my poems with me. got a B+ for the previous test

stef: hahahha, no lar i dun think you are vulgar... a guy fren of mine just asked me to be more demure.. coz i sweared at him, hahahah! jia you for the coming exams too!

=in poetry class=

"getting sweeter and more demure by the day"??? ok, that proves it. steffie has gone insane from all the studying about laws and bills and stuff! heh...

another paper tml... boooring...

oh and huixia i think its ok la.. dun have to go with me on the 19th... =) thanks anyways!! shud be able to handle it.. i believe...

cant wait for the exams to be over guys!!

HI ALL!!!

man.. its been really active in here.. since the last time i popped by.. which was not too long ago..

Qing, Ruyin: what huixia is trying to say or rather insinuate is that i'm a one helluva crazy woman.. with limited vocabulary too.. cos i'm prone to using words like hell, shit, what the hell, what the shit.. oh and i think she means i'm kinda vulgar too.. i'd rather call myself expressive.. haha..

Huixia: how dare you insinuate things like that? i'm a nice sweet little thing who is getting sweeter and more demure by the day, thank you very much! =)

haha.. i'm halfway studying for my take-home paper, which is tmr btw, and i just don't think i can make it anymore.. sigh.. nothing is getting into my puny little brain.. which shrunk even more after coming to school.. i gotta find a way to enlarge my brain again.. any possible ways of doing that qing?

who cares about chinese, islamic, civil legal traditions anyway? and who cares about how abstract tradition is anyway?? yup babes, that's why my module is called, COMPARATIVE LEGAL TRADITIONS. where you ponder about what is tradition? whether there is a tradition? whether china has law? (i quote that from my lecturer who is from China himself) whether Islam is divine? ( yet another favourite phrase from my Muslim lecturer "Islam is divine", he keeps saying this phrase every 30 min) whether civil law is civil? what is the place of dharma and karma in hindu tradition? argh.. somebody save me.. i'm drowning..

anyway, good luck for your exams ya babe? it's ending.. and mine and ruyin's are just beginning...

p/s i won't be free on 19th nov cos i've gotta prep for my exam.. sorry about that ya qing?

Oh my sister and i love that song too! But never really know what the lyrics meant... you know you kinda juz sing along coz you like the tune and stuff.. coool....

well, yesterday's bitch 202 was hmmz.... at least can pass la. But i didn't study my taxonomy and there was an essay question and some short answer questions on it so some i left blank, some i juz tried to crap my way through. I can't believe that we are actually suppose to remember like the different phyla, classes, families and genus of different bacteria and archaea and what not. To me, it's crap. You can be goddamn sure that I won't choose microbiology for my yr 3 and 4 speacialisation. I'll prob go genetics. Like it more... seems more logical and easy to understand to me rather than why this cell has cell wall and whatever... like, ok, do i really want to remember?! So anyway, subhajeet and another girl left early. I could have left before subhajeet but there was no point coz then I would have no where to go since i still ahve to wait for wang yu and it was raining outside... oh and i swear that my german professor is looking more and more like nils (my sis's bf) everytime i see him.

Oh, went to watch matrix revolutions yesterday as sorta like a stress reliever. It was alright... erm... i'm sure all you guys will want to go watch it so i wont say anything to spoil it for you.... wanted to watch uptown girls or identity but matrix was like the only other film that was showing at 930... so too bad... in any case i think uptown girls is the kinda movie that will be nice even watching on small screen. ie, should find it from someone, somewhere and download it. Long live piracy! hahaa... Ooops, will i be charged for saying that? in case some nasty reporter finds this?

Oh and ruyin, there is actually no way to retrieve it... once its gone its gone... this is the computer man... it works this way... actually the matrix is quite a cool show, on the whole. Think i will go watch matrix 1 again and try to understand it... i now understand juz matrix 2 and 3 after some er... explaination.

3 more papers to go... the rest should be pretty alright compared to that bitch though that doesnt neccessarily mean that i'll do any much better...

Ok i'm really hungry.. shall try to go find food and kick wang yu's butt outta bed...

seeya soon guys...

hey ppl! i wrote sth just now but forgot to post!! ehh.. it asked to save b4 i accidentally logged off... know how to retrieve it?


=blur blur=

Ruyin, dun worry... everything is at the back of your head somewhere... u'll be surprised at wat you actually remember.

And I have concluded, we are not bitches after all. Do you guys wanna know who's the biggest bitch? It's my damn 202 module!!! Argh!! I haven't really finished studying.. glanced through most of the stuff and my exam is in another... 1.5 hrs... woohoo! I was like sooooooo sick of studying yesterday and soooooooo resigned I was like, whatever, I dun care. Honestly, I thought I was going to go NUTS. nothing was going into my puny puny brain and i was super super stressed and just wanted to fuck it, i dun care anymore. Sighz... studying stinks like hell man. Esp when its a bitch like 202.

heh~ paiseh i still dun get it! hahahha... tml's finance presentation.. been worrying abt the report and the presentation for wks.... and now i'm like............ HECK! really got tired of it man... hiaks!

but got another presentation on mon! and my report not done yet! so nothing to present! guess my wk end is burnt... well, when did i have a good one?

arghh! huixia! my poetry project is due on tues! and i haven't started! how how! where got time?

feel damn demoralised recently.. no motivation to continue studying.. been too hardworking this sem i guess? did well for my tests but i really dun feel like studying for the exams.. and i've forgotten those tested! gotta do everything again.. that's like.... SIANZ

=time not enough=

Hey babes... at Lee Wee Nam library now... was just studying at NIE lib. Well, didn't do much. But I saw a damn lot of my classmates there la. There was like 5 or 6 of them. Scaaary.... Didn't manage to domuch though. However, what I did manage to do was to quarrel with Wang Yu. Again. Honestly, I dunno wat's wrong with me (or the both of us) but we are certainly doing a hell lot of bickering. Like, it would be absolutely nothing and then one way or another, we would suddenly end up pissed at ourselves and each other. I mean, I'm really trying hard and I keep telling myself to stop picking a fight with him over absolutely nothing? But somehow I juz can't seem to do it! It's really irritating, not counting on top of the fact that it's stupid. Given that he's leaving soon, it's really the last thing that we should be doing. But i guess the fact of that has also caused both of us to be a little in the bad mood recently. But i still dun get it. Shouldn't we make the last few weeks of him actually being here really count? Seriously, I'm really irritated and kinda distressed over this. Well, then again, maybe distressed is too serious a word. Irritated is still a better description I guess... Speaking of which, he's leaving on the 19th midnight flight. I was wondering... ok, this sounds kinda duh, if any of u guys would want to go with me? Well, I am having Inter-School floorball game before that and should end bout 10 then I'll be rushing down to the airport... I think I might need some emotional support over there. It would truely be silly if I should start bawling and be there myself. Anyone got a shoulder to lend? Of coz now i'm preparing for the might-happen. I might not neccessarily bawl. Like I said, it's juz a preparation. We can even make a night out of it, you know? Like after that you guy(s) can come over to my place.... oh wait... nus and smu having exams... Oops... okok, scrap the idea. Unless huixia wanna do it? I was thinking if one than one of u is ard then can rotate shoulders so it's not so tiring on juz one of you, you know? hehe... ok la, prob i'm juz too pessimistic. Maybe I should see this as an opportunity to play the field again eh? Well..not so blatantly this time of coz... haha... oh, watevers......

Love is a funny thing my friend. I never thought I would land where I am today. Well, I dreamt about it. I dared myself to dwell on it even. But I never thought here is where I would be. I was utterly convinced several months ago that I, Tong Shuqing, is incapable of L.O.V.E. That's a forbidden lang and word in my world. No such thing as L.O.V.E. That's a fallacy and lie that people made up to make others miserable that they can't get this supposed magical L.O.V.E. And yet, here I am today. Would I then concede that there is love? that it is not a fallacy and there is a magical love? Maybe not. After all, it's not all magical. Much of it is undescriable (how do you spell that?!) heartache, surprisingly-never-ending-flow of tears and conflicts within oneself capable, if not handled properly, to completely destroy and bring a person down. Down to the abyss where light is never seen again. But hell, if the love is true, it's worth a shot. A goddamn roller coaster ride it is. We all have to try the roller coaster. It's juz a part of life's roller coaster. And perhaps, we might pull through and not fall off the seat. And maybe, even when we do... we'll juz brush ourselves, and hop on the next carriage. After all, life never stops turning for one fallen individual. Get up and roll with the mess. Sometimes that's survival. Blindly carrying on. I believe we have done that many a times before. And yes, no matter how many times we are required to do that, we will. For this is what we are. This is what we are made of. We are (cheesy line coming up. Pls stop taking any dairy pdts if you are) survivors. Oh, but of coz dun forget the occassional unloading through mindless ranting and raving (such as now) and complaining bitchy-ly to your friends.

Oh, what did I say?

actually, yah, i dun get wat huixia was trying to say too... now that ruyin has mentioned it. Yet another non-studying day! woohoo! anyone of u guys know how to use excel to plot graphs? or maybe huixia you have graph paper (unlikely) that can lend me? =)

why you want to switch to NTU? I tell you... no matter where you go, its the same... maybe because now we dun really have like a need or place to apply what we learn thats why we feel like we are not learning much. Happens to me too... but stef once told me that she deeply believes that no matter wat, there has to be sth in the uni worth for us to learn from and I think she's right... perhaps not all academic wise... but honestly I dun think you'll find a difference studying here and studying there. SMU is suppose to have like a better prog anyways... qimin was telling me that she should have chosen smu instead... so, the grass is always greener on the other side babe...

slept from 11 plus to 3 juz now.. and, it's time to do some work.. strangely feeling slpy though... hmmmmmm

yoz... yah i msg shumei happy birthday.. remembered... hee...

well qing you dun have to feel so nerdy... I AM feeling damn nerdy too.. with my specs and stuff and studying or doing proj almost all of my waking hrs... man! feel so no-life!

wah.. qing and huixia finishing exams oreadi? man! i haven't even started or no time to start on my revisions man!

btw, guys... i'm seriously contemplating of switching to NTU... what do you guys think? suggestions??? hahaa, i think you guys must think I'm crazy right.. but then... i dun learn anything here! dunno what i'm slogging for as well.. damn~

and huixia.. sorry i couldn't get what you implying.... brain overdose of all these puns liao... hahaha.. so you gotta be CONCISE and straightforward. anyway, hope your essay went on well...

=the nerd?=

hey heyyy... huixia.. funny... there's no right or wrong ans juz argue your way through... When you're given a question such as "Discuss the factors affecting gastric emptying", there really is juz those few ans which are right. You can't say like, proteins because they juz dun. There's no way to argue your way bout it. Remember, I'm taking SCIENCE. There's almost always a right ans. because it's SCIENCE and that's what SCIENCE is. Gee, I'm the only one amongst u guys taking SCIENCE. Damn I feel nerdy. =S

Oops... didnt wish Shumei happy birthday. But i doubt that mattered. Though I'm sure it would have come as a surprise to her though.

Oh, steffie, how's that take home paper of yours? Went well?

Haiz.. i should start studying. And i have to finish this lab report which i was suppose to hand in on the 24th of october but didnt coz i didnt have the results bcoz i didnt go for the prac lesson. so now rumours have it that the results have to be in by the end of this week. And since it is counted towards the end of my grades. I had better get it done. Sighz...

Study hard pple! Esp huixia since ur (ours) exams are ending! +U+U+U+U+U+U!!

just remembered.. today is shumei's birthday.. 2nd NOV.. so if you girls happen to see this before mid-night, remember to wish her a happy birthday ya..

Hey babe,

just thought i'll pop by and say GOOD LUCK for qing and huixia for your exams!! i think i'm not going back during the hols liao.. cos mi mom said that we cannot go back.. sigh.. and i was so looking forward to going back and stuff.. oh well.. then again, we'll have time to meet up..

i've got this exam on sat.. its kinda like a take-home exam but its gonna last from 9pm to 1pm.. sigh.. so it's like a cross between an assignment and an exam.. only thing is taht the assignment is gonna count towards 100% of my grades..

huixia.. i know what you mean man.. holland v is the mode of entertainment for me and my neighbour.. we always come back and dabao just to watch holland v and de-stress...

anyway.. i've gotta prep for my thingy on sat..

GOOD LUCK again!

steph..