Sunday, December 19, 2004
i knew something was wrong.. i just knew it..
so i called him today to ask him what's wrong with him. i don't know how to react to what he just said. he said he needed some time alone and he need quiet space. so then i asked him what was he thinking about? he said he was thinking about how he might be wasting my time.. by being my boyfriend. then he thought about what would happen if we broke up..
we talked about the wasting my time bit. he remembered that i wanted to get married at 28 cos that would give me enough time to sort out my career and still have kids before 30. but he didn't want to get married. i was like huh? you're the only son you have to get married. well apparently he wanted to get married but only when he was 30+. so by the time we reach 28, he didnt' want to get married and i wanted to so it would be a problem right. to which i said that its kinda too early to think about things like that. and so many things could happen in between.
so then he started thinking about what would happen if we broke up? would i still talk to him? would he call me for dinner? would he or should he bring me out for my birthday dinner/lunch if i was going to spend dinner with my friends? would he or should he buy me a birthday present? would i say i never want to talk to him or see him ever again?
so then i said if you're thinking so much about what would happen if we broke up, does that mean that you're also thinking of breaking up with me? he said he didn't know (whatever that means).. so i went, "so what now, while you're still thinking (cos he hadn't come to a conclusion)?" (meaning are we still techincally together or are just cooling it abit i.e. taking a break ie. breaking up momentarily?) he said he didn't know and asked me what do i want? so i said "ok loh" cos i didnt' know what to say.
then his mom came in and then he had to go. perfect end to a confusing conversation.
so is he going to break up with me? i dont' know. i told him to msg him about our current status later on..
girls, what do you think? is this a breakup? or whatelse could it mean?
so i called him today to ask him what's wrong with him. i don't know how to react to what he just said. he said he needed some time alone and he need quiet space. so then i asked him what was he thinking about? he said he was thinking about how he might be wasting my time.. by being my boyfriend. then he thought about what would happen if we broke up..
we talked about the wasting my time bit. he remembered that i wanted to get married at 28 cos that would give me enough time to sort out my career and still have kids before 30. but he didn't want to get married. i was like huh? you're the only son you have to get married. well apparently he wanted to get married but only when he was 30+. so by the time we reach 28, he didnt' want to get married and i wanted to so it would be a problem right. to which i said that its kinda too early to think about things like that. and so many things could happen in between.
so then he started thinking about what would happen if we broke up? would i still talk to him? would he call me for dinner? would he or should he bring me out for my birthday dinner/lunch if i was going to spend dinner with my friends? would he or should he buy me a birthday present? would i say i never want to talk to him or see him ever again?
so then i said if you're thinking so much about what would happen if we broke up, does that mean that you're also thinking of breaking up with me? he said he didn't know (whatever that means).. so i went, "so what now, while you're still thinking (cos he hadn't come to a conclusion)?" (meaning are we still techincally together or are just cooling it abit i.e. taking a break ie. breaking up momentarily?) he said he didn't know and asked me what do i want? so i said "ok loh" cos i didnt' know what to say.
then his mom came in and then he had to go. perfect end to a confusing conversation.
so is he going to break up with me? i dont' know. i told him to msg him about our current status later on..
girls, what do you think? is this a breakup? or whatelse could it mean?
Thursday, December 16, 2004
ouch! did u go and see tie da?
it was great initially when we were still in Leicester but when we went travelling it wasn't so hot. i kept snapping at him and he was really quiet but that's cos we're around strangers.. then he went back so didn't really get much time alone towards the end.. so i don't know..
btw i received your presents today!!! great! thanks you guys! *big hug*
it was great initially when we were still in Leicester but when we went travelling it wasn't so hot. i kept snapping at him and he was really quiet but that's cos we're around strangers.. then he went back so didn't really get much time alone towards the end.. so i don't know..
btw i received your presents today!!! great! thanks you guys! *big hug*
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Hey guys i'm back..... just got back yesterday
China was fun but i sprained my leg due to unlit staircase at wangyu's house. Paain....
32 pounds is very expensive i think you should just jog around your neighbourhood. And as for kevin.. er... i dunno. Maybe you are maybe you are not. How was your time there with him?
Huixia started her intern and ruyin will only be back on the 28th of dec i think.
China was fun but i sprained my leg due to unlit staircase at wangyu's house. Paain....
32 pounds is very expensive i think you should just jog around your neighbourhood. And as for kevin.. er... i dunno. Maybe you are maybe you are not. How was your time there with him?
Huixia started her intern and ruyin will only be back on the 28th of dec i think.
nobody comes here anymore! i've been busy with work cos i've got 3 essays to tackle.. how are u guys doing? hx have u started ur PA? Qing, how was China? is Ruyin back from Thailand with presents for us yet?
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should i join the gym? its really near to my place (like 2 min walk) and it's got a pool and classes and stuff.. and a sauna! and a jacuzzi.. but.. it costs 32 pounds per month...
should i spend my new year in London (meeting the Nottingham people and Ian) or in Edinburgh (where i'll be at the biggest New Year's Eve party but alone)?
don't know what to do. need advice!
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maybe i'm being paranoid but kevin seems a bit distant now (before u say that he's 13,000 miles away so of course he's distant, hear me out) when i call him at the time that he tells me to, he's doing something else whilst talking to me like watching TV or something. he doesn't msg me as often as he did pre-UK and when he does, it sounds wooden. in fact, i msg him nowadays, and i usually don't msg people, and his replies are wooden as well. when i ask him if everything is all right, he says he's busy with trainings. is it me?
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should i join the gym? its really near to my place (like 2 min walk) and it's got a pool and classes and stuff.. and a sauna! and a jacuzzi.. but.. it costs 32 pounds per month...
should i spend my new year in London (meeting the Nottingham people and Ian) or in Edinburgh (where i'll be at the biggest New Year's Eve party but alone)?
don't know what to do. need advice!
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maybe i'm being paranoid but kevin seems a bit distant now (before u say that he's 13,000 miles away so of course he's distant, hear me out) when i call him at the time that he tells me to, he's doing something else whilst talking to me like watching TV or something. he doesn't msg me as often as he did pre-UK and when he does, it sounds wooden. in fact, i msg him nowadays, and i usually don't msg people, and his replies are wooden as well. when i ask him if everything is all right, he says he's busy with trainings. is it me?
